I try to change myself '09

A short time can change many many thing. Just a short time, many thing was different dy. Not just thing, people too. Maybe some people is changing now, include me. But I think I need long time to change myself. I want be more generous, dont so qiao qi, and more. I want be a Gooddddd girl.

Erm. want change it, difficult? Erm, I dont know. I'll try the best. Maybe it will be so difficult, because it's my disposition many years dy. I think I want change it will be more difficult. But, I also will try it. I'll try my best. Because I hope I can be you girl friend again. I hope I can be the good girl friend in the future. Maybe I'm not the best, but I'll let you satisfied.

Maybe will got people say me IDIOT, STUPID and many many. Because they said this world still got many good guy, good than you, I still got other choice, not just you only. Why I want so stupid to wait for you? But I never cares about they said de thing. Because I just cares about you. You said de thing is he most important to me.

Maybe this few days you were busy in some thing, have some thing wanted to do. It so emergency one. Maybe you not feeling well, maybe you didt free, maybe you go out play with your friend, maybe your phone was lost, maybe your phone was out of the battery, maybe your phone no credit dy, maybe resting now dont want people disturb you, maybe you feel me so annoying, maybe you feel boring chat with me dy, maybe you is busy to do anything. Thats the cause you cant reply me. But I know I just cheat myself only, let me didt feel so hurt. These causes just I find to be the pretext for not reply me only. I do like this just want me dont feel so sad and hurt only. I just worry about you only. No other means.

Maybe I want to be strong, cant always like that. Somestimes I feel very tired to find these excuse. I feel very tired now, very tired, very tired, really very tired. I need rest. T T
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