My mind '09

Today feel bored too. Nothing can do it, Just thinking. Thinking something. Few days also like that. This few days, I think so many thing, last year till this year. I feel many thing was different already. Not just thing, people also like that. Me also like that. "Different" ? Dont know ant how to describe it, just feel its different. Maybe got happy thing, maybe got sad thing. But i think sad thing is more than happy thing. Dont know why feel me like didt happy like last time dy. Maybe also got thing is changing now. Maybe me too. "Happy"? Now, I really dont know what means is this. Maybe "Happy" this thing is less appear on my face.

I feel I very BAD! I'm a BAD GIRL! My happy smile was only a disguise for my sadness. I can cheat many many people, but I cant cheat myself. Sometimes I'll feel very tired, but maybe I do like this, my friend and my parents will not worry me.

Before I sleep, I always think about our thing. I think it every night. Sometimes I feel happy, but sometimes I feel hurt. One night I dont think, I cant sleep. Maybe this was my habit dy.

I never tell anybody about my mind. Just my blog. Just this place can let me express my feeling. Although got people will view my blog, know my feel. But hope he/she dont ask me. Because I will dont know want how to answer him/her. Just let me alone. Thanks.
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