You '09

Again, again and again. Sometimes I thinking same thing. Why will always like that? I really feel tired. I dont want think it, but I really cant control myself. Why?! Why?! Why?! Why I always think about it. It will let me feel hurt, sad and tired. I tired to find any excuse dy. This thing will let me feel hurt anymore. Why I want like that? I really cant without you? My life really cant without you? I dont know. Now, I'm so confuse. Maybe something was be a part of my life, include you, Jia Hoe. Our memories, will always in my heart, will always recur in one's mind. Anything I can do it? You already occupy my heart. My heart cant to have a capacity of other guy already. Maybe it will keep long time, long time, forever.

Maybe got other guy is good than you, but I also just love you one only. Yesterday I have gone Seremban after my teacher marry. I know Jia Long will come back. I think is you fetch him back. But when I asked Mei Zhen, she tell me is your daddy's worker fetch him back. Dont know why, suddenly I feel very disappointed. I know although is you fetch him back I also less chance to meet you. But if I know you at KP, I also will feel happy.

On the way I back from Seremban, I think back many thing batween you and me, from last year till this year. From you till shy to me till you didt feel shy anymore, the time together with you really feel happy. Dont know why after that thing, many things between you and me suddenly recur in my mind. All the thing between you and me. Something last time I forgot dy de, suddenly remember all. Many many thing is in my mind now. I feel very lucky because can have you be my laogongzai 1 year 2 month and 10 days. I feel very "xing fu" in that time. You gave me many many happy memories. Although sometimes have angry, sad, hurt, but I also never give up our love, memories. The memories will always in my heart.

That time, I already strive for our relationship. But I also can let you stay beside me. Maybe its just a stumbling stone between you and me at this time. Hope the time will not be long. I wish you can get the good result in your exam in the future. Wish you got a good new life in your universiti life. Hope you will not forget me. I still will always support you quietly behind your back. Anything happened still got people support you de. Anything you do must got your reason. I'll try to accept it. Hope you can always remember a girl still waiting for you forever. Still waiting for you come back to her. I will not ffk you, just you. This is my promise you last time and in the future de. Hope you also will not forget it. I will love you forever and ever de. 我永远爱你到老. I think this thing you will still remembar baa. Dont forget it, pls pls pls pls pls.

Besides, hope you can remember before anything you said with me. Wishes. Tan Jia Hoe, hope you can be my boyfriend again. Just you can be my boyfriend, other guy cant! Just you, Jia Hoe. I know we not the couple anymore. But I hope we will be couple again in the future. I'm waiting for you finish your study. Even if is many years you just finish your study, I also will wait you. Hope you too. I'll go visit KL again. I hope can meet you. I know I'm so avarice, hope so many thing. But I really need these thing in my future. You already be a part in my heart, in my mind, in my life. Maybe my life cant without you. Till now, I still very love you.

Any festival I also will give present to you. I no other means, dont misunderstanding it. Although I'm not your girlfriend dy, but when your family birthday, hope you can help me to express birthday good wishes for them. This thing I also didt got other means, just be manners. Hope you can help me do it. Thanks you, Jia Hoe. Thanks you so much. I dont know can say what dy, can say what to thanks you gave me a very very very happy times. I will not forget it, I'll always remember it till the old. Hope you too. I really hope you can see this post. Let you know I'm thinking what now. But maybe you'll view it, maybe you'll not view it. Just wishes.

I love you, Tan Jia Hoe. I really love you forever and ever. I must wait you till the old. I hope you be my laogongzai again in the future. I must listen to you, be more faithful. Anything you said, I also will do it. Do all the thing I promise you last time. Jia Hoe, I really hope you not forget me. Wishes. You must be the most important in my life. Just you, Jia Hoe. You must be a whole part in my heart, my mind and my life. Hope can continue our love in the future. Forever and ever.

I miss you, Tan Jia Hoe. I love you, Tan Jia Hoe. Must remember gai bei bei when you ooi ooi. Must remember take medicine when you not feeling well. Must becareful when driving. Dont think anything when driving, its so dangerous. Must becare in all the thing. I'll always worry about you. And dont so naughty dy ar, wai. T T I love you, Jia. T T
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